Today I fear that I have a few friends but many acquaintances. I can count on my fingers people who really trust and who can rely. I know that to find true friends it is like look for a needle in a haystack. But thinking about it makes me sad. I noticed that people around me can easily communicate with so many people and keep it simple, meanwhile I always feel myself lonely. So I think may be problem in myself? May be I should change my attitude to people? I'm not a rude or aggressive person,but I perceive everything close to the heart. And also I have a terrible set of shyness and low self-esteem, so I was easily offended or hurt. My shyness doesn't allow me to say sometimes what I want or doesn't let me to show myself to other people. For example I know that I'm good at singing and dancing but only my mother and several close to me people know it. Even my grandfather just have knew it recently,when I with great difficulty overcame shyness recorded the song on his Birthday. I really want to communicate and have a lot of friends or even acquaintances but with who I can share interests and really have fun together. So I'm thinking now about sort of to practise meditation to become more me and to handle with my complexes...Well Good Luck to my self)
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